Loneliness. It’s something that we have all felt in our lifetimes. As a single parent you may feel as if it is your constant companion. At the end of the day there is no one there to share in your triumphs or your struggles. There is no one there to help carry the heavy burden of parenting your children and it often leaves you feeling incredibly alone.
This has been a constant struggle for me since my divorce. I yearned for the companionship that I had lost in my marriage. I wanted someone to talk to when I was frustrated with my ex or worried about my son or stressed about school. Even though I had many people around me that loved me, I still felt alone. At times I let the loneliness consume every aspect of my life. I became deeply depressed and was unable to find happiness in any area of my life, no matter how hard I tried. It was here in the depths of despair that I realized something had to be done. I couldn’t live this way anymore. Logan deserved to see his mom happy again.
Instead of feeling lonely, I began to fill the void with other things that made me happy. I began doing things I hadn’t done in years. I started working on Logan’s scrapbook again. I started reading and playing the piano and going out with my girlfriends. I found positive things to fill my life with. I still felt lonely from time to time, but I found that the busier I was the less time I had to focus on the things that were missing from my life. I still wish that my situation was different. Nobody wants to be a single parent, but at least in the meantime Logan has the opportunity to see his mother happy again, and that’s what’s really important.