Today has been one of those days. What am I saying, it’s been one of those weeks. Those weeks when you would give anything to have someone else take some of the burden, someone else who could find the right thing to say, someone else to know exactly how you are feeling.
That’s not going to happen. I’m a single mother, this is my life, no one else’s and as much as other people love my daughter and I, when you get right down to it, it’s just the two of us.
Just my daughter, making decisions,changing her mind, turning everything upside down. I’m not saying she made the wrong decision, I truly believe she made the right choice but it affects a lot of other people and some of them are not going to be very happy with her. So, by proximity, they are not going to be very happy with me.
I wish her father were more involved so he could help with this storm that is brewing. He could field the phone calls and the emails, he could listen to the questions and maybe, have a better answer than I do.
My daughter has done the right thing, I know in my heart that is true. But that doesn’t mean that other people aren’t going to be hurt and disappointed by her decision. I support my daughter, but I also understand their pain.
Single parenting is always a storm brewing. Everyone is waiting to see if you are going to screw up and mess up your child. It all comes back to parenting and no matter what our children do, it’s our fault. If we had provided a different home they would have turned out differently.
I wish people would remember that our children are going to make mistakes, just like theirs are. Don’t judge my daughter too harshly, because one day, this could be your child.
I love my daughter, and as painful as this will be for other people, I support her. I’m proud to be her mother, her single mother, who is doing the best I can.