In light of the horrific events yesterday I had to write a few words expressing my feelings as a mother. When I learned of the tragedy in Connecticut my heart sank into the pit of my stomach. These little children were my son’s age. Each time I looked at him I nearly broke into tears. This is every parent’s worst nightmare. I cannot imagine the intensity of the pain those parents are feeling as they are tucking their babies into bed tonight and finding that one of those beds will forever be empty. The loss of a child is by far the worst pain anyone can ever experience in this life.
I cried as I watched my son drive away with my ex-husband last night. While I knew I would see him the next afternoon I was terrified to let him out of my sight. What if that was the last time I ever saw my sweet baby again? I knew very well, that the chances of something happening were incredibly slim, but how many of those parents thought the same thing that morning? That little boy is my light, my life, my everything. There isn’t a moment that goes by that I am not thinking of my little man. He is my reason for living. How could I possibly go on if something were to happen to him and I wasn’t there to protect him? Unfortunately, I had no choice but to watch him drive away last night, but I couldn’t help but hug him a little tighter, a little longer before he left. I questioned myself, “Did I tell him how much I loved him? Did I tell him how much he means to me? Did I tell him that he was a special? How amazing he is?”
There are going to be times in our lives when we can’t be right next to our children. As a single parent, it comes far more often than we would like. Don’t forget to hug and kiss your child each and every morning. Tell them how much they mean to you. Tell them that they are your little ray of sunshine. Tell them that you love them more than anything in the world and that you will always be there for them.
For those parents affected by this horrible tragedy, know that your children had a sweet reunion in heaven. Know that they are among the angels watching over you and that they are well taken care of. Heavens newest angels were tragically taken from us here on Earth, but they are making a difference on the other side of heaven.