So much of my identity is tangled up with being a single mom, I really can’t imagine being married again. When I was first divorced I dreamed of the day that I would meet someone and finally have my happily ever after. I dated, a lot, I was determined to find my Mr. Right and get on with the rest of my life.
Well, here we are almost nine years later and Mr. Right has not shown himself. Now I have a different perspective and wonder if I will ever get married again.
There are many reasons people get married, companionship being one of them, but I’m not lonely, most of the time. I am surrounded by friends and family so more often than not my issue is having too much to do rather than too little. I know married companionship is different than friends and family but I don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything right now.
Another reason people get married is to have a family. Well, I have a family, my daughter is the only child I could ever want and the only child I will ever have. It just seems like a lot of work to figure out who we are going to spend time with on the holidays, his kids or mine.
I have to admit I may be a little selfish. I’ve gotten used to being alone. I can support myself, change a taillight, do most simple home repairs, take care of my yard and spend my time how I like,
I’m not sure I’m ready to compromise right now, maybe I never will be, I kind of like being alone.
I think part of this is disillusionment. I see so many divorces all around me, do I really want to put myself out there just to end up right back where I am?
Also this life I lead is one of few surprises, I like it that way. I know that I’m not going to come home from work one day and find my life turned upside down my someone elses choices.
Being single really isn’t the worst thing that can happen to you, being in a bad marriage is much, much worse.