So I just had surgery on my foot and I am supposed to be staying off of it and now all of a sudden my sister in law wants to bring dinner over. I feel like I am in some sort of alternate universe or the pain meds are really doing something weird. I know they may make me nice but should they be making her nicer?
I know that sounds mean but when we have had so many issues throughout the years and we have had little to no support from her. Even when I was going through chemo and radiation she never once took our kids for the day or night. Now with this one surgery she is all of a sudden showing up with dinner and a floral arrangement.
Now I was gracious and called to say Thank you for the dinner and flowers but I am still stunned. I have given many chances to my sister in law over the last 13 years and each time she says she is going to be nice I get encouraged and then end up getting punched in the gut when she reverts right back to her old mean self.
It feels almost like a test; tests to see if I am dumb enough to trust her again. Have you ever heard the saying “Hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice shame on you and there won’t be a third time.”? Well it is way past the third time and up until now I kept giving her the benefit of the doubt. The last time I was hurt I said that was it, I was done. I explained that I no longer was willing to give her any more chances.
So what do I do now? I think for now I am going to sit and wait to see how the next few months go. I don’t think that I would ever let her close to me again. I don’t think I can ever consider her a friend, I tried that before and just got kicked back down. I thought I was out of high school and this makes me feel like I am right back there.