Tonight my little brother and I spent the night fantasizing about running away and starting over. In a few short months he will embark on a new adventure in Paris, France as he serves for two years on an LDS mission. As we talked, I couldn’t help but fantasize about him packing Logan and I in his suitcase to go along with him. We came up with an elaborate plan to run off, change our names and start our lives over.
Of course, our plan would never work, but it is something I’ve been yearning for, for a very long time. It’s hard not to fantasize about what life would be like away from the constant divorce drama. How different life would be. My worries would be so much smaller, so much less significant than they are now. I would give a lot to be able to start all over in a new place, with new people, and new things to explore. A place free of any memories. A place where Logan and I could get that fresh start that we’ve always wanted. What I wouldn’t give for that to be our reality.
Unfortunately as a single parent, you are very limited in your options for running away. As much as we all wish we could run off and start our lives over, it just isn’t feasible when there is another parent involved. Instead of running from your problems, you are forced to face them. Running away doesn’t really solve anything. Sooner or later those problems are going to catch up to you. Each problem you face is placed in your life in order to teach you something. Better to learn the lesson now, than to be faced with it over and over again later. These lessons will shape you into the person you were meant to be. You will gain strength and knowledge as you face each trial. In the end, it will be worth every struggle, but in the meantime I think I’ll keep fantasizing about that trip to France.