Well the weight is starting to move, and now I’m getting concerned about getting something else moving – namely me! I’ve never been the most energetic of people. I can multi-task most people off the planet, but can’t run to the end of the yard without feeling as if I’m going to die for want of oxygen. At the moment, people assume this is because I’m fat. Unfortunately it’s not quite that simple. I used to be stick-insect shaped until I hit my early teens, and even then I wasn’t one of life’s sporty people. I was a musician. I lived in the music room. I avoided the sports field as much as my timetable would allow me and lived in dread of gym days when I was required to don my gym clothes and jog around the track or worse, play hockey.
These days however, my lack of motivation for movement is more than just personal choice. With major weight issues, it’s hard enough to get the body moving into exercise mode, but I also have deep vein thrombosis which means that my legs are often very painful. I also have chronic fatigue. This isn’t the kind of fatigue that just makes you feel tired easily. This is the kind of fatigue that puts you in bed for days after any out of the normal activity, and it affects slim people as much as it affects fat ones so it’s got nothing to do with weight! Add to that intermittent asthma and there’s quite a lot piled up against me in the exercise department.
As yet I don’t know how I’m going to get started exercising. I’m scared if I’m honest. I don’t want to lose 3 more days of my life because of doing a short exercise routine. The chronic fatigue is probably my biggest enemy here. Even a trip to the grocery store can result in my needing to sleep for a few hours. I guess it’s a case of taking smaller than usual baby steps so that my body adjusts without realizing it. But how small is small, and is there any point to doing 2 sit-ups a day?
I know that 2 sit-ups a day today and adding 1 a day means that in a month’s time I’ll be doing 32 sit-ups, and that’s getting more like it, but it seems so feeble. Actually that’s a pretty good word for how I feel physically. Feeble! What I really need to do is find something gentle to get me going. Maybe I should look to see if there’s any yoga for fat beginners instruction videos around!
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