Since my son was born he has only seen his dad one time. We ran into him at a local event when my son was just over a year old. Tonight, we ran into him again. My son’s father held him for the first time. I’m not sure how I feel about everything that just took place.
It would be fine with me if my son’s father wanted to be involved in his life, but he is the one who told me he didn’t want to be involved. It was his choice to never see him. It is hard not to wonder if he still feels the same way after seeing him.
My son acted the same as he always does. He is very much a people person. He smiles, talks and laughs with everyone he meets. He went to his dad without hesitation. Of course, he doesn’t know it is his dad.
My ex’s wife mentioned that she and my son’s father would take him with them so he could visit. I’m rather sure she was just being polite, but it does raise questions. It makes me wonder if my son’s dad really would want to see our boy on a regular basis.
When my son was a baby I would have refused to let his dad take him. He wasn’t married and I wasn’t sure where he would take him or who he would let watch him. Now that he is married and living happily in a new life, I really wouldn’t mind.
I wouldn’t want to be unfair to my son. If my son wanted to spend time with his dad, I would support that. It is the fact that his father always told me that he didn’t want to be part of our lives in any way that concerns me.
I wonder if my son’s father was just being polite to keep the peace and has no interest in seeing his son. I also wonder if having seen him has sparked an interest and a desire to see my son.
This is one of those times when life is complicated being a single mom. I know my son’s father has never been involved, but I wonder if he still feels the same way as he did three years ago. Situations change and people change. How do I know what he wants unless he is willing to tell me?
It seems that it is time for me to bite the bullet and communicate with my son’s father. I need to know if he is interested in visiting with our son.
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