I found out my ex-husband is getting remarried tonight. What’s worse, he didn’t have the nerve to tell me himself, I found out through Facebook. At first I was in shock. Wasn’t it only a few months ago that he told me he wasn’t getting married again anytime soon? Wasn’t it only a year ago that he was trying to get back together? While I am thoroughly convinced that getting divorced was the best decision in the world for me, it is hard to watch my former husband become somebody else’s. Not because I want to be with him, but because I know what it was like to be married to him.
After the initial shock wore off I found myself feeling a wide range of emotions. I was angry that he didn’t have the guts to tell me himself and I was sad because I knew my little boy’s life was going to be changing a lot in the near future and he just doesn’t handle change well. I was scared that this girl was going to try and step into my role as a mother and claim my son as her own. While I knew this day would probably come eventually, I was far from prepared for it tonight.
Life gets tricky sometimes after a divorce. The drama never ends when the papers are signed. There is still a long road ahead as you learn to navigate the ups and downs of being a divorced single parent. It is far from easy. In fact, it is likely the hardest thing you will ever have to go through, but in the end you will gain strength from the journey, strength you never knew you had. I certainly never imagined being able to survive my life the way it is now, but I have and I actually am pretty happy with it. He is the only negative thing in my life and without him I wouldn’t have the very best part of my life either. All in all, even with this bump in the road, I have been very blessed. I have a family who loves me, friends who support me, and a little boy sleeping next to me that thinks I am pretty amazing. I really couldn’t ask for more.