Contemplation
Do you ever sit and wonder, “How did I get here in my life?” That is a question that I often sit and think about. As some people believe, I believe that our life is planned out long before we are even born. I wonder why then that I was taken down the road that I have traveled thus far. I figure that there must have been lessons that I was supposed to learn along the way.
Each triumph and downfall has had some kind of effect on me in some way. Have I learned a lot? You bet I have. I feel so much wiser than I did when I was younger. I have learned to shrug off the little things that were not worth fighting for. I have learned to appreciate even more so the little things that I sometimes took for granted in the past. I have learned happiness and contentment with very little. I have also learned to relax more and enjoy just sitting and staring into space. I used to look at a flower, for example and think, “That is really pretty.” Now when I look at something, such as a flower, I think of how beautiful it is. I watch how it moves in the wind and notice the texture of it. I think, “How did that come to be made and why was it made in that particular way?” My thoughts are much deeper now.
Discoveries
Life has taken me down some very dark roads with curves, bends, dips and even a few potholes. It has also taken me down some roads that were very smooth and clear and I could see for miles ahead. With each dark road I would ask myself, “What am I supposed to be learning from this?” I usually got my answer loud and clear. The clear roads? Well those I just enjoyed. Do I have regrets? Of course! Don’t most of us have some regrets? I cannot change the way things are and I realize that. I cannot go back, but only move ahead. Sometimes I think that I see the light at the end of the tunnel only for the light to dim once again. During these times I have to force myself to stand tall, be strong and tell myself, “This too shall pass.” With each obstacle behind me I feel a little more tired, but also a little stronger and I know that I have conquered another chapter in my life. Do not despair because although it is difficult you will get through it and you will rise up stronger and more courageous than you had before. “Don’t ask for a light load, but rather ask for a strong back.” (Anonymous)
Angel Lynn writes in weight loss and single parenting