I’ve always believed that everything in life happens for a reason. My life hasn’t gone at all how I thought it would, but there have been many lessons that I have learned along my bumpy path. I made a lot of mistakes when I was younger. There were a few years when I wandered aimlessly. I had no real purpose, I was simply living in the moment, without realizing the lasting consequences that those decisions would make someday. My divorce gave me a chance to put all that behind me. It gave me a chance to start anew. I had wanted to get my life back on track for so long, but it wasn’t until I was on my own that I was able to find my way back.
It wasn’t easy at first. I had never really been on my own before. For a while I felt like I was less of a person because I wasn’t married anymore. It may sound silly to some, but it was truly how I felt. I dated a fair amount after that. I was convinced that I needed a man to come and make everything all better. I wanted to be married again. I wanted to live that happily ever after that I hadn’t had with my first husband. Over the course of the last two years I have had more than one opportunity to be married again. Each time I had an undeniable feeling that it was not the right thing. True, I may have been happy for a short while, but I knew that ultimately I would regret that decision more than anything else in the world.
I truly did want to be married again, but I believe that there was a bigger picture for me. The time wasn’t right. I hadn’t accomplished the things that I was supposed to accomplish yet. There were certain things in my journey that had to fall into place first, in order to prepare me for a true happily ever after, one that would last through the eternities. I still find myself wishing that I could have that, but I know my journey is far from over. I’ve learned that good things come to those who wait and forever is definitely worth waiting for.