Logan and I both went to the doctor today. We both have Influenza Type A, which basically means we both have this tiny microscopic germ that has taken over our bodies and left us feeling rather miserable. Not only are we both feeling a little miserable, we’ve also been banned from going back to school for the rest of the week. Logan’s not too concerned about this of course, but I know it will leave me trying to play catch-up in the weeks to come, which as a single mother is rather daunting in and of itself, but to be doing it while I’m flat in bed is a bit of a challenge. Anyone ever tried to convince a 4 year old to stay in bed all day? It doesn’t work…if I was healthy maybe I could manage it a bit better, but needless to say he’s destroyed our house in a matter of minutes because everyone else is too sick to stop him. Why is it that little kids can be sick as can be and still have an explosive amount of energy? Not fair.
So while I’ve been lying here with sickness oozing out of me, I’ve been thinking how could something so small, something you couldn’t even see with the naked eye, cause my life to get so out of whack? What other seemingly microscopic things in my life are keeping me from moving forward in my life and living the most fulfilling life I could live? I realized that for me, it was letting go of the pain and learning to forgive my ex. While I am perfectly justified in being angry with him, I realized that that little part of me that is holding on to that pain is holding me back from truly moving on in my life and finding true happiness. Carrying around the anger isn’t doing anyone any good. It doesn’t affect him at all, and it is negatively affecting me, so it is time to let it go.
Now I extend the question to you, “What little things in your life are holding you back from being the most fulfilled you can be?” Is it bitterness and anger? Jealousy or hate? Even something as trivial as thinking an array of ill things every time you see your ex’s number pop up on the phone. Find out what it is and let it go. Even the smallest of things can have a huge impact on your life, just ask these little germs!